Diary
December
The illusion I fell for, again....
01/12/25
I once again fell for an illusion that was only inside my head. But I decided it, I can't keep focuse on looking for someone else that loves me to feel enough with myself.
It's okay that I don't talk at all at school; I won't try again to make friends nor look for someone to be with me, it is just me and no one else by my side. So, if that is how it's gonna be, I'm rather gonna care for myself and don't talk, don't try.
I feel sick OMG
06/12/25
OMG
I feel so sick. My ears hurt as fuck! ugh
I feel so sick. My ears hurt as fuck! ugh
Sore
10/12/25
Why do I feel like this?
I know I'm a fucking monster, but why do I feel so sore inside?
I feel like I am destined to be lonely. I'll eventually get away from my family, and since I don't
interact with people, lonely, with no one.....This makes me sick and sore....I feel anger, raging...
I know I'm a fucking monster, but why do I feel so sore inside?
I feel like I am destined to be lonely. I'll eventually get away from my family, and since I don't
interact with people, lonely, with no one.....This makes me sick and sore....I feel anger, raging...
Failure
24/12/25
I feel like I'm a failure to my family......
New Year
31/12/25
This is gonna be a new year. I don't know how to feel about it. I hope it is gonna be fine